cancel the trip.

no more blogspot.

goodbye for good.

little by little, I'm gonna let it all go.

Ignorance is Bliss.

Goodbye.

Leaving on a Jetplane!

I'm off to see the Rockies! (in a week....)

I wish I didn't give facebook up so I could somehow make plans with the Western YFCers....would it be worth putting the hiatus, well, on hiatus??

Still making up my mind on that one.

Sweet and Simple.

Thank You for 19 beautiful years of life.

Though I've been selfish...

Make something beautiful for Yourself out of my ife...starting today.

Thank you guys for the birthday greets! They really did make me smile today =)

Only You.

Only You know what's inside me now.

Try as I might to hide it and smile for You, I know I have no where to hide this.

Out of depth.

Why is it that people keep reminding me that it's my birthday soon, like I'm going to forget? I'm not busy enough for that...geez.

Is it that they're more excited for my birthday than I am...or are they trying to prove to me that they're good enough friends to not have forgotten?

I don't know...either way, I apreciate the thought...but I'm truly not excited.

I'm not going clubbing, I'm not going out for drinks, I'm not having a party and I'm not getting presents. I know now that it's not really about me anymore. No...I'm not being emo. I honestly am grateful for another birthday...I praise God that He saw fit to give me another year of life. It's just that the past year wasn't about me...my life isn't about me..it's all about Him- that's the way it was meant to be.

A part of me wishes for something special to happen, but in my heart I'd rather be nothing so that God can be everything to everyone in this world.

My selfishness desires more, yet as I try to squash it out of me until I'm nothing, the greater the desire becomes.

In my mind I know that I don't need to understand the reasons why, but I do need to trust in His Sacred Heart blindly.

I'm trying really hard...harder than ever before, but as I push myself onto sure and steady foundations, the more emptiness I feel.

It's hard to pray, but I pray constantly...the minute I wake up to the moment I'm asleep.

I've never desired the Lord this much in my life...yet the more I pray, the more I push myself, the emptier I feel. Reading about Mother Teresa's faith gives me hope though. I'm sure this emptiness in my heart is nothing compared to the darkness she felt for so long, even as she continued His work as a Missionary of Charity.

I do hope that this is the answer to my prayers...I have alot to thank God for...and even this emptiness is one of those graces He has magnanimously given to me despite my unworthiness.

Love.

"Love demands sacrifice. But if we love until it hurts, God will give us His peace and joy...Suffering in itself is nothing, but suffering shared with Christ's Passion is a wonderful gift." -Mother Teresa

Thank You Lord for Your sufferings, Your passion and Your Love for me...for us. I pray that more of Your children may be able to commiserate with You and Your Mother as this world continues to crucify You and Your Mother's Blessed hearts with our sins. I pray that we may be able to bring You some comfort in Your thirst for our love and our response to Your overwhelming Love for us through our own sufferings and our own sacrifices...even though they could never compare to what You have done for us