What to do...

I've got such a crap load of things to do but I know that I won't even make a dent in it today. 

I've got all day with nothing planned...but I wish I did. 

On days like this I really wish the last few months never happened. I never used to have days with nothing planned because I had someone to fill in the empty spaces. 

I don't wanna sound emo, but the empty spaces just hurt now. Then again, most everything hurts these days. 

Pain and I are long-time friends...I'm almost used to it. Every phone call, conversation, chillage, time you mention you-know-who...it all hurts.

Whatever. If this doesn't kill me, it'll only make me stronger (in Him).